DEEEEEELICIOUS

2004-01-08T12:21:00.000-05:00

That's what it feels like

My body loves me this week. Morning workouts, healthy food, regular sleep, 1/2 the TV, no alcohol ---- Wow. My cats are even more attentive (or is it that i'm just not whining 'stop crying').

Double Bonus - I'm scheduled to hit my first ball with my new clubs. To make it even better - I'm going golfing with my MOM, Brandi and her mom. Chateau Elan to boot.

Ahh.. my week has been good.

2004-01-08T12:18:00.000-05:00

My Daily Rant.

I'm actually one of them. Obviously the term came from non-Atlantans that don't like our style. I can see how 'the visitors' coud feel threatened by the in and out flow, the non-blinker lane changes and the excessive speeds on the straight-aways. I never really knew why it was so bad? Don't get me wrong - unsafe driving or causing other's to be in danger due to your own carelessness -- Is uncalled for. However, people freak out on the smallest of things. Even my friends. I listen to their comments -- and I silently say "so what" -- but there I go again --- Being an ATLANTAN.

But for the two Fucks that stopped in the middle of the Highway to exit their desired Exit - but didn't prepare for it or don't realize that Highways and Exits Go BOTH WAYS -- Get the Fuck out of my city or better yet --- just stay off our roads.

In Roman..... you know the rest.

I respect that rule.........I don't even attempt to drive in the snow. Even if i see 5 flakes... I'm on FOOT.

2003-12-30T13:48:00.000-05:00

Best way to start my year

I couldn't think of a better way to start my New Year than escaping to a horse farm outside of Charleston with the most interesting of sorts. That'd be you, you and our crew. Horse and Canoe rides have me craving the outdoors.

Our home away from home New Years bash sounds perfect for my soul.

See everyone else next week -- or after I recover from work's Mass Push common to January.

Note to self: Rest during your trip TOOOOO. Holiday recovery is planned.

2003-12-30T09:55:00.000-05:00

Tres de Anos

*Personal Growth - practiced a balanced life - friends, family, me, amy, work, excercise -- as previous years were lopsided to one vs all
*Closer friendships - i've moved past 'closeness by proximity' and focused more on the quality of time. I couldn't ask for a better group of lesbian friends (McGruder's Bar) and couldn't have a finer family of friends (W&P, JB, S&J and Crew and Gicki in NYC). Bonus friends- Anthony N, Joel, Natalie & Kelly - and the crazy two P&P.
*Newbies - two cars, furniture and apparently lots of wine
*College Football's banner year (minus lsu and fla)
*My mom. My girlfriend. My two kids and Me.

What could be better.
*movies - why don't I enjoy them as much? i feel like the 'mass appeal' overruns the talent. I don't like the Tarantino style flicks or the heroine obsessed teenager dramas. Give me drama with thought and surprise. Make it a serial killer suspense and I'll pay more.
*my reading habits (or if I could replace the 3 mill mags I read for 3 books)
*less telly. I can't help it. Unlink flicks - there are some good hr programs that are thought provoking. Give it up for my Law & Order and CSI families. Not to mention - football has my undivided attention.

2003-12-17T15:26:00.000-05:00

Funnier than lyrical humor

Is when my girlfriend knows what Milk Shake means. I suppose it's simple enought that I could have figured it out on my own? Maybe she's just a hood rapper deep down. Do you know what it means? Good news --- it wasn't the raunchy translation I first thought.

I'm in need of a kitty sitter. I wish they could travel with me.

Countdown to the Southern Tour de Force: 4 days
Countdown to Charley Charley Town: 13 days
Countdown to Georgia spanking Purdue: 14 days
Countdown to me leaving work: negative 1 minute

no more mayo on sandwiches people - please! my stomach says PLEASE>

2003-12-16T15:02:00.000-05:00

Realization

Minus my mispelling "moments" (mommmments... thanks Walt) - I feel I'm grammatically correct most of the time. That's why I'm posting this..............I have SO not had correct spelling or grammar on this fucking blog thing. I just read two of my blogs and slapped myself for simple mistakes. It's just Sad.

I'm blaming it on my lack of time to proof them before I post. I figure I'm doing well by writing at all.

So here is my apologies for the forthcoming SHIT reading material

2003-12-16T14:52:00.000-05:00

Lyrical humor

I'm telling you what - Country and Rap music get's away with the silliest or maybe corny is the term i'm shooting for... but the lyrics are just fucking hilarious.

new one i heard TWICE on the way to work

"The boys all love my yard because of my milk shake" ---- am I stupid... b/c I have no clue what the hell that means? or is it just as raunchy as it sounds??

hmmmm.

2003-12-12T13:24:00.000-05:00

Perks of My Relationship

* Massages, just because
* Warmth, understanding, softness, etc etc... you know all that sweet fireside stuff
* Culinary experiences
* Health conscious support and involvement
* My own 'Entertainment Tonight" and endless What's In Style Reports
* Cool as Shit Hair Appts - cuts by 'Stylists of the Stars' - in LA, Atlanta or even at my house!

and now a "do-up or blow-out or whatever they call it (remember...cars, sports) " I call it Styling --- by none other than American Idol and Ryan Seacrest's hairstylist - 'Dean'. Not sure what will come of it, but a fun time none the less. If I was a guy...there be any shock WHO i'd look like at the end of the night - Clay or Ryan? Which one's which these days.

..... and of course, I must add to the list - love, sex, love and stttttuffffff

2003-12-11T10:01:00.000-05:00

Apples to Apples

Red Light at North Ave offered up a One Minute comparison. To take you back about 6 months ago - I was in the car buying business. Without default - I was obsessed. Options, warranties, service record, price comparison, monthly and annual breakdown, my budget, etc. It was time consuming but I truly enjoyed it b/c I can't remember when I've last gone car shopping.

For the last few years I had it in my head that I was headed towards a BMW 328 or 330 2 door - for sure. I had seen it on the road for so long with adoration and desire. I'm such a boy that way - I swear I don't want to be this 'stereotypical' dkye -- but I LOVE cars -- and Sports. I accept it.

So here I am - finally warming since departure- and there it was -- side by side. The BMW 328 next to the Audi A4 - same year, same color, same bells and whistles. I was in a tunnel - almost surreal like- Two cars - I made this fast attempt at comparing everything from width, heigth, bumper size to light size, badassness to the wheels & rims. That's when I felt it -- the most peaceful experience.

I made the RIGHT decision! Cheers to my Ming Blue Baby! Go AUDI

2003-12-10T11:00:00.000-05:00

Not sure what to think....

As I was on my usual tour de force from Alphy to Midtown last night, I witnessed a thought provoking act. My last leg is south on West Peachtree passing the Cheetah and their luxiouriously named restaurant 'Alluvia' (you know .. All over Ya).. and there he was.... a man in his 60s, walking with a cane was attempting to cross the 5 laner during traffic. And there I was, with an immediate fear that this man is NOT going to make it across at 2 steps per 10 seconds (not to mention he almost fell twice within the 3 steps I saw). I thought to myself.. how could I help him? What the hell was he thinking?

Then I had this 'Other' thought enter into my mind. This ole fart is too cheap to valet his car at the fuckin Cheetah. He's risking his life to see some P***** and too cheap to pay $5 (I know, I'm not a fan of valet.. but I can run across a damn street). My fear suddenly turned to 'Yuck... Ole Man.. just Yuck' -- there I went - speed on Audi.

Later I thought... that ole man has every Right to look up some chicks legs just as much as the younger, ugly, fat, married man that spends his lunch hour there 3 times a week. Why did I judge him so? Then I remembered -- I just don't like the 'maleness' associated with strip clubs. I'm glad these women are making every effort to pay their rent, their BMW leases and their bastard child's college fund.... but I don't care -- the whole 'society' of it all... Just doesn't settle well with me.

Oh well - call me a dork, old fashioned, man-hating, whatever --- but that's the sheeeziiot thought of my drive home.

2003-12-08T16:15:00.000-05:00

Gotta wonder...

I laugh every time I go to the gym -- No, not at the gay dynamics or the straight folk avoiding eye contact... But instead, I get the biggest chuckle watching closed captioning. I can just imagine what the translator (machine or person) hears and what is typed. At first, i thought it was problems understanding the southern accent. As our southern newscasters can have the longest draw. Then I saw the same mistakes happening on World News.

So what is it? A machine just can't figure out some words or we have an ebonics Director of Closed Captioning. Although I'm confident that's CC is technical -- I chose to accept the latter - just for that extra chuckle.

2003-12-03T10:08:00.000-05:00

What I'd take

I have been thinking about this off and on since my T-giving dinner discussion. I know I've thought about it before - as it's a common group discussion. You know -- your personal lists --- Top 5 of anything. No - I'm not listing my Top 5 women -- as I don't know if I my previous list has changed (i'll have to make that my Xmas dinner topic --- maybe not --- my grandparents probably aren't ready for that discussion).

So -- it was the "What 5 CDs would you take to a deserted island - if you could only have 5 -- Forever"

Here goes....

1. Coldplay - first one (Can't believe I forgot this very important one before) -- there new LIVE album is a MUST for everyone. I believe they're my 21st century U2.

2. U2 (wasn't hard to guess from my comment in #1) - Joshua Tree -- without a doubt

3. Dave Matthews -- Everyday or Under the Table & Dreaming (arrrrghh, I can't decide- so I won't) -- I know, I know - when did I become such a flower child. I can only pretend to be (b/c we all know i'm NOT)

4. Sarah Mclachlan - Fumbling towards Ecstacy - Without ANY doubts

5. Fleetwood Mac - I'm gonna have to say the GHs - only b/c i don't want to give up a few songs not on Rumours

In all honesty - i'm weak on #5 -- as I know I may have to replace it with a different Genre -- as all of them are Sing Along albums... I could use something upbeat - danceable -like Madonna? or maybe Harder like Tool or Janes Addiction's first one? Or dark - like Pink Floyd's The Wall. -- However - i could use MORE WOMEN!! Natalie get's honarable mention.

2003-12-02T12:46:00.000-05:00

Fascination

I have to watch out... I could EASILY get addicted to the Discovery Channel. So much that time stops (or doesn't ---which is the problem). For some odd reason, I'm fascinated by Tsunami's. As I surfed the GUIDE.. I saw a show called "Mega-Tsunami's" So I traded in my Law & Order obsession for a night.

Although I'm left with fear of the unknown, it was quite a lesson. Apparently Mega-Tsunami's are a result of a massive landfall/ Rock avalanche if you will. The force, speed and weight of Rock avalanches create Mega-Tsunamis. Obviously, the amount and height of the Rock are key. There I am - fascinated - watching how Mega Tsunami's are created.. and what has to happen to make such a large amt of Rock fall at once. Even more fascinating, is that the Tsunami can travel across the Ocean (100's of kilometers high and long).

All of this kept me glued for over an hour... Then the story turns. There is a volcanic island (la Playa? or La Something) West of North Africa. It's known for earthquakes and volcanic activity once every century (last 4 centuries). One active and one inactive Volcano makes up this island. The last volcano was in 1949. During the last explosion - 1/4th of the Island (can't remember the size.. but it's HUGE) split off and began to slide Down towards the ocean. It only slid about 10 feet.

SO... I then learn that Rocks split from each other from earthquakes (not new news).. but that water between the rocks create the "Slippage" atmosphere. Not just water but Hot water. So here is this island. One that is prone to earthquakes and was split in two -- or has SLID down in 1949 --- b/c -- the water was heated by the VOLCANIC lava present in the active Volcano.

ALL of this said.... This island is expected to be the next to have an earthquake - definitely within next 50 yrs. The prediction: The entire WEST side of this island (only 1/2 of the left side.. but none the less... it's long as shit) WILL create the world's next Mega-Tsunami. Want to know it's path:

The ENTIRE East Coast of the Americas. From Boston, NYC to Miami. 8 hrs is all it will take and it will cover the entire Southern part of Florida in Water! NYC - Flooded to half the size of the high rises. Translation: Massive Death and Destruction.

The only comfort is that the scientists don't know if this Rock Slide will happen on the first, second.... or fifth earthquake. So it could be this century or in 500 yrs. They can't answer that.. but what they can answer and have published --- IT WILL HAPPEN. the Mega Tsunami WILL HAPPEN.

Hmmmmmm.

2003-12-01T13:55:00.000-05:00

Thanks for giving me solitude to....

~ Reflect on my previous and upcoming year
~ Sleep more than I should have
~ Connect with my two kids
~ Excercise regularly and feel a difference as a result (energy and assurance -- everytime!)
~ Calm, amisdt fucking crazy people, shopping
~ Furniture shopping (soothing)
~ College Football
~ Thanksgiving dinner in two adoptive family of friends

and most of all... PURE excitement -- My New Idol You FUCKING GO GIRL!

2003-11-24T12:31:00.000-05:00

Oh Holidays.

Weekend of lazy days and crazy nights. D- learn to STOP after 3 drinks. Lord.

Best Part: My Sweetness gave me the coolest early Xmas gift. Professional hair stylist came to my house to do whatever I wanted (to my hair of course). Thank You. Thank You. Thank You.

Worst Part: Getting extremely annoyed from something very stupid.

Rainy, dreary weather has me craving the sofa and television. Not a great feeling day.

2003-11-20T11:51:00.000-05:00

Just a small request:
The only thing worse than the pain those little boys and their families have to endure..... Is that I have to hear about this shit for the next year before MJ goes to prison. Request to the news industry: Just RECAP it monthly. I can't handle the OJ style reporting anymore.

2003-11-20T09:59:00.000-05:00

One more step for man kind

I sat comfortably on my sofa, legs crossed - as they always are, reading the latest news. Feelings of joy and a sense of accomplishment for my people. Growing up white and somewhat affluent, I never felt racial or society struggles like others around me. I'm not jewish. I'm not black. I'm not poor. I'm not foriegn. I'm just a white girl from the south. I guess my groups are 'Women' and 'Southerners.' Obviously being a woman has had much larger impact on my life, in the realm of struggles and accomplishments more than being Southern (allthough I could rant and rave about SEC football struggles... cause it has serious implications on us southern's lives).

I came out to myself - sheer admittance - my freshman year of college. It may have been more of a revelation that I had already been there in my actions throughout high school. Prior to high school... there wasn't anything but curiosity of what our own bodies were transforming into? With all of that said, I have enormous pride in being gay. In celebrating it. In participating in 'it's' transformation. As I grow older, I feel I've taken advantage of what many of my peers have fought for in my person. The countless lawyers and politicos that spend every waking moment fighting for my equality.

So, as I read about Massachusetts law. Recognizing Gay Marriage. WOW. My generation is so lucky. We've seen so much improvement during my 20s. I'm amazed that Homosexuality has become 'normal' in the public - musicians, icons, actors, your neighbor, you coworkers. My company invite says - bring spouse or significant other.

Don't get me wrong, I'm fully aware of the masses that disagree with this life I lead. I'm also fully aware that the country I live in has a leader that fights against me on this. I'm appalled at how our collective leader has such point of view on such a population of his country. I don't care whether he likes homesexuality or not - that isn't the issue - but his role is to represent US collectively. Without going into the many other failures of Little Bush - I can confidently add this to my list of why Bush will not EVER be considered a leader.

Cheers to the families that have joy in their lives -- and can become a recognized family by their CHOICE. CHOICE = it's our legal Right! I'm crying in elation.

2003-11-18T15:46:00.000-05:00

Tuesday

I've spent the last month avoiding her. I just didn't like hanging out.. negative energy. Actually, it's because I wanted less to do's on my endless list. So avoidance gave me a chance to relax or the ability to not think about her. Now that she's back, I actually missed her and am ready for some one on one time. Here's a kiss for you little P-diddy - my sexy 928.

I sat in front of my television - as usual - with dinner in one hand and a magazine in the other - watching the 20th century Madonna grandchild confirm her redneck upbringing, her sexual prowess, her serious backside curve & her ability to captivate most of us. Is it even her music? I started the show with "i don't even care to hear the music" - but ended it with "this may be the time to start listening to miss thing." Although she doesn't write any of the good songs... and the Zone song is horrible (even with Madonna in it)... the new shit isn't bad! Plus I'm scheduled to dance to some of it??

Where can I find.......Energy to stay up for the entire Monday Night Football game. I purposely ran further, stayed at the gym longer and ate light. Damn - who made the rule to start those games after 9pm anyway? Same thing goes for the Superbowl and the Final Four Championship Game. I know you All REALLY care!

2003-11-17T14:13:00.000-05:00

Sunday Oh Sunday

* Vegetarian Breakfast - Idea and entrance into a 'great feeling' place had me excited until I was handed this Italian Fat Manicotti looking 'breakfast burrito' - yellow grits and hard biscuits. Carb bloat anyone.
* Home Depot Truck Rental. Enough said
* The Best Welcome in the City - my mom's dog and I have a 5 minute moment everytime I go over. It's like Sammy hasn't seen me in ages... Makes me love that little dog more and more (so much that i want one)
* Sofa nap in a new home with fabulous healthy snacks
* Pre dinner snacks while shopping at Whole Foods
* Two-TV Football, Pink's AMA performance (after a let down on her looks) & CSI
* Deep sleep next to You

2003-11-17T14:04:00.000-05:00

Wouldn't it be nice.... If I could always have great seats to the Georgia game and sit with an entertaining group (minus some relationship drama and the heavy tilted bourbon baggie coma crew)

Wasn't it nice... When I laughed my ass of for 7 hours straight - thanks to our Careless WhispAH

Wouldn't it be bad... If I always had tickets to Georgia games.... b/c i'd drink just as much Bourbon and eat as much cheese, eggs and PB&Js as I do everytime I go

Wasn't it Bad.....My friend unsuccessfully tried to smuggle 16 ounces of Sangria into the game and when my darlin sweetheart hangs out at Taco Stand -- Just leave those Sensitive heals at the door.

2003-11-14T12:58:00.000-05:00

Daily Rant
- I SO don't believe that ignorance is Bliss. I'm SO over 'ignorance' at work.... I could scream. I have to have faith that groups of people aren't really ignorant, but that it's lack of motivation. Laziness -- I believe we need some of it in our lives for balance of the soul.... but Shit - it's a serious problem in our lives today. Get up PEOPLE... have some respect for yourselves.

Daily Bliss
- My little girl sleeps at my feet to make sure she has her side of the bed - but yet keeps warm next to my body. My little boy sleeps at my head to make sure no one hurts me in the middle of the night... or maybe he just has the endless need to be the first thing i see in the morning (too bad he doesn't realize that even when I awake at 5am.. i do go back to sleep for a bit). Once I'm awake... He purrs and makes biscuits on my arms (and elsewhere if he can!) and she screams "Morning Mom" - and then comes up to my face for a kiss. This is what I have instead of children running around with my eyes and my smart ass charm. If that is forever... I suppose I'll survive... but maybe not.

Daily Bread
- God gave me hummous and avocados. Add spinach, tomatoes and spicy mustard and I'll be your friend forever.

Daily Prayer
- Please win the Football Pool this weekend. (God, I was a good kid this week, I swear). Oh yeah.. one more (cause I was really good this week) - Please help the Dawgs SICKEM. *can't get the southern out of this girl*

2003-11-14T12:47:00.000-05:00

2003-11-11T16:01:00.000-05:00

All the Exes live in Tex.... I mean Seaside.

Vacation was just that.... Va (Amy)... Ca (Pam) and Tion (Kelly). Just a few of my friends. Va - of course, is my one. Ca and Tion are now just good friends with some serious personality traits.

The arrival was like HS (OK, College too) Graduation... LET'S DRINK and PLAY ALL NIGHT LONG!

The Second day was like the day after graduation..... Don't Talk, Don't Move, Put in the Movies and give me some pizza.

The Third Day was Post recovery (not really from the drinking.. but from 3 months of a WORK hangover) - I played a 'beginner style' round of golf with a semi-pro (sorry hun.. i have the smaller penis on this one) and had heavy-on-the-horseradish raw oysters.

Last Day - Wine Festival. Much to many's disbelief, I enjoyed the featured wines. What I didn't enjoy was the lack of organization and the lack of time I was there. I felt like I was chugging vs. tasting. We ended the evening with a Low Country Boil with about 20 Atlanta lesbians. I truly enjoyed not knowing 75% of them.

I returned thinking... OK, now for vacation.............2 days off of work JUST DOESN'T CUT IT

2003-11-03T14:19:00.000-05:00

*Britney in Esquire and Rolling Stones is a gift to my lesbian heart
*The Sunshine of the Gulf Coast and entertainment of Seaside's wine festival and lady-fest makes this week MINE!
(Although I can't promise liver health, I can promise that this vacation will be FULL)
*November sunbathing at Lake Lanier with great company and an amazing sunset is what it's all about
*Closing 4 major projects at work at one time offers me a needed reprieve
*Wow - it's the fucking holidays already.
*I feel nauseus when I listen to women who 'accept' behavior for fear of losing that person (like losing that treatment is a bad thing?) Why do we show our children that being alone isn't lonely.
*I've been given the bill of health from the internist (regular physical that i've never had... how about that for regular). Internal organs, cholesterol, blood pressure, bloodwork, etc are all tip top. My fear --- is that I should get a second opinion even on these tests.

2003-10-24T13:15:00.000-04:00

Now I lay me down to sleep...

I pray to lord my soul to keep. If I die before I wake.... please make sure Va Tech beats Miami and Georgia overcomes the Florida curse and stomps it to Auburn before a revengeful SEC champ against LSU.

Oh and yes... thanks to my parents, grandparents, my dog, bird & duck pets as a kid, and television.

Happy Birthday to my mom.

2003-10-24T13:12:00.000-04:00

*war at work.
*endless healthcare requirements
*managing lazy people sucks
*back pain blows

so i'm ready for the wkd.

2003-10-14T10:08:00.000-04:00

Feeling Healthy. Loving my girl cat who gives me kisses like an eskimo. (kinda: nose to lip). Inspired by Athletes. Miffed that I was about to complete Lance Armstrong's book and heard of his upcoming divorce. I was in awe of their post chaotic bliss, just to feel let down by human ego. I truly feel bad for his wife... as I'm positive his obsession of his own accomplishments prevented some of hers.

Having coffee pains (2 a week allowance - per my mental godess). Interestingly enough - i feel like dressing classy vs. sloppy. Unnecessary job insecururity - just a case of Cypress Hill in my head. I'm pretty sure it's anxiety of What Else Can I do? What else is out there for me? - you know - the What If's that drive people to Prozac.

I Envy vegetarianism. Raw. I daydream of me breathing from the chakra outward on a cliff with Blue sky and white waves. Fresh juice daily. vacation time soon please.

NYC - amazing Hotel, Bar and Dinner - Called Hudson Hotel w/ Cafeteria Restaurant. You have to have their Salmon and Tuna... it was a culinary orgasm. For a different, but charming experience - check out El Buco in East Village for a Tuscan retriet. Cheese Platters for you soul (and your waste ... but who wants to think about it on vacation). Of course.. shopping... it's for the strange, the trend getters, the trust fund elite and yes... sometimes me.

Fondest memory of the trip - Champagne and a smile.
Next - Chicago, Seaside, New Orleans and hopefully San Fran.

2003-10-07T17:42:00.000-04:00

back on the chain gain.

I'm fascinated with people who like Las Vegas. Lights. Debt. Tigers. Drugs. Anger. Showtime. It's not me.

Humm Hummm....I like to hear a little guitar. I guess it's time to put the top down. I need a phone call. I need a rain coat. I really really need a rain coat...strumm strumm. What fun.

Off I go to NYC for the wkd. I anticipate street gauking, clothing purchases, art opinions, winter chills, cocktail consumption, walking & smiling with my lady friend.

why do they bury bodies? why do flowers wilt? I miss wine. PS... I still love you Ms Crow.

PSS - i promise to complete my thougths -- soon.

2003-10-02T14:48:00.000-04:00

Simple pleasures

* My girlfriend, an educated - PR driven mind, thinks it's interesting that I find the 'stupid' or 'not intelligent' commercials the funniest. I suppose I don't think about what I'll find funny prior to it showing. Now it's even more funny when she looks at me like "Are you stupid.. that's SO not funny" -- it makes me laugh even more..... a simple pleasure.

*I believe in free speech. I believe in debate. I especially believe in challenging each mind to think and to combat a topic to their own belief. But I'm just laughing at Rush Limbaugh losing his ESPN job. Mainly b/c he's a fat fuck and he should have NEVER been working for ESPN..... aaaah.. a simple pleasure.

*I find that I have been reading more and watching TV less. I know that when I sit for hours on end on a daily basis, that I'm doing less and less for my growth as a person. I suppose my choice in books should be brought up at the same time.. but for argument's sake... reading usually offers more opportunity to grow, learn, etc. (minus Danielle Steele and Dr Phil). So what if I'm reading ESPN.com to get my daily allowance. So here I am.. reading articles on my favorite topic... sports. I was pleased to read that a Boston sports writer and the newspaper took out the back page to publish an article that he's gay and he wants to combat the acceptance of homosexuality in the sports industry. He's right... it's rampant - comments fly on national tv all the time. Post apologies are accepted without penalty and public outcry. So in defense of my second simple pleasure, I believe if Rush should quit.. then we should hold up the same standards to the 300 lb Center who has more man hands up his ass everyday than the avg gay man.
.................not a simple pleasure (at least not yet).

2003-10-01T11:09:00.000-04:00

Daydreaming.

Is it this one or that one. Is this what talent sounds like. Am I hungry. Re-focus. Why can't things flow smoothe all the time. Would I really want it to? I love the color blue. next to green and white fluffy clouds. My moods are fun to watch. I know I haven't always had so many different moods. Is science the most confusing to grasp. Why don't we know how to manage hormones in relation to our minds. I'm scared of the future emotional state of our medicated kids. Sugar fed my chubby youth - or was it processed meat. I did nothing for society as a teenager... but be a kid -- maybe that's better in the long run. I'm soft. What is the bigger picture. hmm.

Coffee stains my teeth.

2003-09-30T12:07:00.000-04:00

Thick.

Most know that Patience is my biggest weakness. I am challenged by that everyday. I especially would like to strangle this one chick at work. FUUUUUUUUUUUUUUCK! Your skull is THICK! B/c I know you're not that stupid. FUUUUUUUUck.

Back to My Lovely Day

The weather is phenominal. Slept with windows and doors open - now if I could just keep it at this temp. October is the deal. Sports fans love it. Outdoors(wo)men love it. Southerners love it. 1+2+3 = me loving it. Smiling.

Looking forward to it
*Sarah's new CD. I feel a craving for her music.... and we all know what happens when cravings aren't satisified?
*Pink's new CD... mainly for her concert tour. I've become the biggest PINK groupie. Not sure why - b/c the Detroit thing isn't my style... but the girl has some serious underlying beauty - and the bitch can belt out some tunes.
*Fall trips - NYC, Chicago, SF??, Beach, Family..... etc.
*The height of the sports calendar - Womens World Cup... UGA kickin ASS - Fla, Tenn, Auburn, & yes, bama too
* Holiday play time!

link it damnit

2003-09-29T14:29:00.000-04:00

And this whole fucking time....

I thought I was writing to myself and three of my closest, B-O-R-E-D friends who know the address.... but to avoid any more high pitched non-bloggin bitches from screaming.... What I breathe.. When I breathe... How I breathe...............July 3rd 1902.......FINE.. Here I am.

Outside of living a watchless weekend, it ended not so great. Post the stoned gay boy laughter fest, I trotted (yes, under the speed limit) over to another neighborhood for a 'reunion-of-sorts' with an old college group. As I saw the restaurant about 500 yards.. I was blinded by this obtrusive light... "What the Fuck did I do" -- as i pulled over. License in short pockets on the closet floor (interesting timing of the first cold night) and in my ladies auto -- I began to sweat. Please don't be a prick. A man's voice appears over the load speaker... but a lesbo walked up. My panic thought turned to ... 'was that you on the loud speaker.. oh hunny really?" - she was nothing but polite until i hear this man's voice again "Ma'am' --- scared me to death... Apparently I am his training on how to pull over sweet, non-offensive drivers - such as myself.

LORD child.. i'm going blind and deaf. Apparently I went through a stop sign. Yes - Me - the always aware of her surroundings freak -- Ran thru it. No yield. No stop. No nothing.... Why...........b/c a freaking truck and a tree blocked the damn thing (yes, the obsessed bloke that i am... drove back to see how i could miss it) -- that was it... I didn't... couldn't see it. Where's my diggie -camera damnit. I'll protest this. OK - my lazy side will probably take over.... i'll just write the $100 check beeeotch.

I'm so over it... i won't even waste time on how ODD the 'ole crowd' was. Do people do anything with their lives? Stay off the dope folks. (unless your gay and full of artistic energy) -- and get a purpose! do SOMETHING>

link in to da beotch

2003-07-03T10:43:00.000-04:00

What is that I breathe?

By Golly, it's AIR. Finally, I believe I've recovered. My post Pride week has been a recovery of poor eating habits (if any), consumption of vodka vodka vodka (and champagne and beer), and a lack of sleep. Although I know there is a bigger purpose to the weekend - it's so much fun to celebrate it. It's like Gay New Years! It was all worth it. But thank god it's only ONCE a year.

Thanks to YOU for a crazy fun day and Thanks to YOU for the pre and post parade party! I couldn't have had a day full or more laughter. I really don't care who likes or doesn't like the Pride Parade... but as for me... I will always love it. It's the most amazing feeling to know that gay people love to celebrate who they are. That's worth sharing with each other at least once a year. I will SMILE knowing that I have been there for years on end - as I've grown up in Atlanta and have witnessed the improvements, growth and acceptance (even if it's one mom or one teenager) in front of my eyes.

PRIDE PEOPLE -- LOVE IT!!!!

2003-06-30T16:28:00.000-04:00

Oy Vey

Dear Brain Cell. I'll miss you.

2003-06-20T10:10:00.000-04:00

It's Odd but True...

I'm PINK's Biggest Fan............she Fucking Rocks. That's enough for one blog!

2003-06-19T17:43:00.000-04:00

One of those days.....

- I blinked twice (if that)
- I had cucumber slices, a piece of bread, an apple, OJ and a gallon of water ---- SINCE 7 this morning -- and it's 6pm

Uh...boss man......I've placed an add for my STAFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFf

2003-06-17T14:59:00.000-04:00

I want...

...to order all of Ben Folds albums
...to buy Audioslave - and not sure why
...to go see Lollapalooza b/c Janes Addiction is an all time favorite (only if Perfect Circle -aka TOOL - was playing at their Atlanta show.... I'd be a groupie)
...to have my endurance back up for long easy runs
...to go to Portia de Rossi's wedding. Can you imagine the beauties there!
...to eat firm tofu
...to see Samsonite and my mom
...to RENT my FREAKIN house
...to smile at the sunset off my pseudo-deck
...to vacation to the wine country

2003-06-16T08:48:00.000-04:00

What's the Point

Pulling out of the garage, I felt blah -- my age after a wkd of Social Social Social life. At the second stop sign - there she was. An older black woman with her yellow lab. It took me a second to figure the situation out. She was bending over into the grass with a plastic bag. Then it hit me... this woman is blind and her sight assisting dog had had his personal moment. She was searching for it...to clean up after her mighty friend.

My heart just gave out to her. She's playing her part.. in society, in downtown living. I was moved.

There is so much in this world...............so much more than partying all the time.... so much more than recovering all the time.

Day One Dale. Day One.

2003-06-12T12:59:00.000-04:00

Could it be.........

Here I am... like you....driving up the Northbound corridor about 20 miles. Most of my blogs are created during this daily trek. It's interesting that I'm 'focused' in the am --but extremely flaky in a daydream in the pm. Gotta love the draining job. Anyway -this morning brought a new experience. I found myself behind this bus - thinking about what the 50 things needed to get done before 9am - waiting for the slow ass peeps in the fast lane to move over. Then it happened.

In a slow motion fashion..... I see the bottom of the bus... liquid flowing from the back to my windshield. It wasn't alot... it was more like mist. Then i realized, it only lasted for one second. "Oh My God... you've got to be kidding" ---- I have someone's Piss on my windshield.

I felt dirty!

2003-05-07T16:10:00.000-04:00

is it vacation yet

We have this quarterly presentation of past qtr accomplishments and upcoming projects/expectations etc. to Presidential staff and Upp Mgmt collegues. It's really your chance to show you can communicate what you do to your peers and the Men (lort) that pay the bills and leave me out of stock plans that I was promised. Buggah F*** ***(***()*)(!(%&)*_*)(, Anyway, back to the mtg. It is always an interesting experience in learning why some people are in the wrong positions. I'm not sure if it makes me sad for them, or just happy that others will notice this and make a change. How impersonal. Maybe they think the same of me. Nah - I probably have the rep of being too serious and realistic vs. 'visionary' in speak. Maybe it's b/c I'm the 20th speaker and into the 4th hour in the mtg. Can you say - Reah'Tee to Get out! No one is listening anymore...wake up. Who knows my psychoses at the time.

I'm invited to play golf with the higher ups. I suppose I should be thankful that they are finally including women - and me - in their (i swear i'm not lying) bimonthly outings. However- I learned that we'll be selected randomly for teams of 4 -- I'll be the only girl in my group. I envision myself shanking the ball everytime we tee.. postponing play 15 minutes per hole. Is this a nightmare or a perk for being VP (i think you know how i feel). If only it was 9 holes and a short course. Who knows - I'm athletic. Competitive. Social. A drinker. I may do well? (see... vision, not realism... learning quickly)

It's beach time. May baby! I will be first classin my way (free drinks and mac dvd's) to Hawaii in 6 short days. I'm not sure if it's me -- but i consume so much more when traveling. More drinking (sure everyone is this way) and more eating -- and not healthy. I hereby give scouts honor -- i will not eat badly on vacation -- at least until i have that frozen calorie drink (the Pensacola dream drink - somethin Shucker? - basically a kalua, rum and cream shake!). But I plan to bike, hike, snorkel, surf, kayak, play beach soccer & beach volleyball and run during my Hawaiian getaway. That way - the fruity drinks and endless sushi won't ruin my waistline for the lesbian sandfest.

Oh I'm so not interesting in working anymore today. Bye.

2003-05-05T12:20:00.000-04:00

Previous life Revisited

I bolt on Friday's by 4pm. It's just worth the mental break to leave everything behind and hopefully jump on traffic. This past weekend I had visions of Spring 4pm traffic. Parking Lot in Heat full of eager teens ready to defy responsibility - and the law. Either way - i wanted to get home early as possible. Rest before Sheryl and LL. I couldn't believe it - Nothing. I was home in 15 min flat. I'm not sure I've gotten home that quick at anytime during the day. So there I was - home before 5 on a Friday. That the was the beginning of my night long movie marathon. The massive rain storm squashed my Festival plans. Sorry Sheryl - love ya, but not that much. Instead - I stayed up till 1pm watching flicks. It was a perfect night alone with my two kids and silence in my head.

Saturday - domesticity ruled the roost until mid afternoon - my usual soccer game at 4 -followed by Festival Time! Of course we walked (in midtown living fashion - LOVE IT) to the festival - watched the following (with my comments of course)

Cowboy Mouth - New Orleans cheerleaders with endless energy. Although their music isn't my style - I was pumped with their energy. The lead singer is also the drummer. It was like Lars Ulricht screaming "Let's Party" for an hour. Quite interesting -- but it got me in a great mood for sure

Tonic - I've always loved this band. They border commonality (similar to the Connells) - but only to impress me with great lyrics and amazing voices. This lead singer has the key -- he's got the distinctive tone. Loved the show!! I'll buy the upcoming album as I bought the previous two.

Collective Soul - Damn, they have a TON of hits. Hits meaning - they've been rotated on several radio stations (i know this b/c i'm guilty - i am a radio surfer) for years. And they're all good! The lead singer and his brother are definitely lookers - esp. the brother! Ed - the lead - well, he fashions Jim Morrison. Odd straight man. Or Usual Gay man. ?? It had me wondering.

Sunday -
Jack Johnson - love your voice. love your multi faceted life (go Surfer God). But festival performance - I give you a big SLEEPY. Had to leave before the rita buzz left me.

Drivin n Cryin - love this band - love this band. I've been a fan since the Scarred but Smarter days of High School. I've given them my time, my money and the acceptance the lead singer will never become attractive. I've suffered through those teeth and that (lack of) hair style for ages -- All b/c their music ROCKS! It truely does. However -- Yes, However. Kevn (no I in his name.. which i think is the only cool thing he's got -besides the voice) must have been into the Dead or Phish or Leftover (another Phish) Salmon... b/c the whole freakin show was a jamm session. What the hell man -- Sing the songs Dude. It's freedom Rock for only $19.99 with s&h. Give it to me. I've paid my dues. No more Jammming

So I left. Two songs of Cd playin- singin along Ashanti - and I was reT Teee to go.

Noodle dinner made me pass out by 9:30. Here's to a new week - and the last full work week of the month for me!!! HAWAII and P_cola! Here I come!

Yo Link In

2003-04-29T12:53:00.000-04:00

Box Springs

My children are the owners of my house. I have to trust that they have had a trusting and loving childhood with respect for their elders (and visitors). I've never asked much of them besides proper bowel locations -- of which has only been an issue for my girl a couple of times. She loves the coldness of the sink?? The doc visit for her is soon - so i'll ask.

Anyhoo - they aren't that comfortable with life.. so they get scared or skiddish easily. Even from mom. I've realized that they actually like to get into the box springs (they seem to have pulled apart the covering - they get clever from their mom).

I awoke this am - ready to get out of bed - but as usual, hung out with my boy Seamus for a few minutes.. then the bed started to jerk a bit. "Damn Averie, get out of the bed.. I don't like you in there, it's dangerous with those springs" "AVERIE- O.U.T."

After a few seconds she must have gotten out - cause she just sat at the door looking at me like "What mom." I said "You know what I'm talking about." So my day went on. As I drove to the gym, I realized, - Oh my God -- that was an Earthquake -- What! An Earthquake in Atlanta. God - are you saying something to us Atlantans? We just had golf ball size hail on Friday - now a 4.9 Earthquake? I'm poppin my experience cherry like crazy!

In the middle of my workout - I realized. Poor Averie - I screamed at you for nothing. Mom's Sorry and will kiss you when i get home!
Love, Mom

2003-04-28T13:23:00.000-04:00

The Gods spoke

Golf ball size hail... never seen it until Friday. Result - besides slight fear of the unknown, a close friend's house was crushed. Thank GOD no one was in the bed that was 'demolished'. As for me - I was at one of the most gorgeous homes in Buckhead. A long green yard -- which looked like a whirlwind tornado.

Grand uncle - the first gay man I knew of in my family (only b/c it's hush hush and no one would admit any other ancestors were gay) passed of cancer. The first in my family to get cancer. Either way - he was a cute boy - for his whole life. He never really aged. He looked about 50 at Christmas -- when he was really about 80. He kept his sweetness about him. I'm sure he loved that with the boys in his days. It sucks that he never shared that part of his life with any of us -- especially me. It would have been a gift!

Tiresome -- I absolutely felt tired this weekend. I'm not sure if it was because Friday was an 18 hour workday or b/c i drank a bottle of champagne at the end of the event to ease the nerves and enjoy the END of that day or getting up 3 hrs later to go to a cycling event for my brother in Athens or drinking beer (draft is the devil) all day or standing on my feet for another 12 hours --
but whatever it was --- I had Nothing left Sunday. Nothing -- i took 800 naps, ate everything in site, and spoke 3 words the whole day. I think it's time to rethink working 2 jobs. Money can't be a total focus. Request from the Gods: Sell my house soon -- i could use my one job energy level back!

Other than all of that -- Cycling rocks!! Go Bro! I'm a sis of a bad ass cyclist.

love, me

2003-04-24T16:48:00.000-04:00

Smotzy's pitchin

Strike 1 - jag broke down
Strike 2 - acura broke down
Strike 3 - door is broken (aka break into house)

and i was out!

Tid bit

I watch how car designers have borrowed from the fashion world... going back thru decades of styles... bringin it all back and banking on nostalgia. I've sat patiently - only with a few drunken comments - like "what a piece of shit" "for how much?" - It's even funnier when the design is all Fud'up.. like wood paneling on a those Chrysler P..somethings.

Then BMW comes out with the English looking box. I suppose the interior looks sweet.. but why not buy a scooter... it's the same size, equally as dangerous (minus the lack of speed), and as silly as these shoe boxes. I remember as a kid thinking - thank god i don't live in England - no choice whatsover.. except for a box. I just don't get it.

And yesterday -- I saw it as a Police Car. Is this for chasing in between houses and in backyards? (reference Said scooter?? expensive failure on that too huh. they're now security guard toys.) Leave the boxes in Europe and only ship over the Porsches!!

linkin

2003-04-22T12:14:00.000-04:00

Balloon style

After making 500 pecorcini balls, mowing a half acre of 3 ft wet grass and raking pinestraw - I was OUT for a nap before making my way to see Alice Peacock -- OK - all four of us girls drooooled over this beauty. Amazing voice and a 'realistic' body. The security of two lesbian couples made the drooling much more fun. Alice was referenced to Sheryl Crow -- and although I believe she's as beautiful -- I don't think she's as lasting as THE SHERYL! But i'll go see her again and again!

I found myself dressing up for Easter this year. Usually I'm working in mother's yard or hangin with bromatic... Not this year. This year was spent with my other family. Cool Daddies and DJ Alexa made their way into my bloodstream - creating a dancing diva. I just love you and your parties. Couple time with my closest boy babes -- I got to catch up with my ole faithful - Spring always brings these friendships back -- It's POOL time next!

link in

2003-04-17T09:08:00.000-04:00

Is anybody out there?

Today is a good day to sell a house isn't it! To the powers that be -- here's a good reason for today to be special.

visual

biking is much different than running - maybe it's b/c i'm not having to pay attention to the ground as much -- but cycling offers more of a zone affect, whereas running is a thinking affect. The difference being the ability to lose sight and vision while in the zone. So there I was - zoning into a blur of vision, yet subconsciously (or is it that out of focus eye trick again) visualizing the 30 legs pumping - Up and Down - Up and Down. For some reason I thought about coal fueled engines -wondering if ships should put bikes in their fuel rooms for power? I think I'd prefer it if I had to be down in the depths of the ship.

Woooo... then i brought myself out of the zone.. and said "what the hell is that?" daydream about something else.. like pretty beaches or biking in Hawaii... leave the sweaty, dirty 'Hunt for Red October' daydream alone.

None the less - the hour sweatfest was fabulous.

d-linkin

2003-04-07T16:38:00.000-04:00

Pollllleeen

has my mind, throat and eye sockets begging for forgiveness. Visualize shingles breaking every time I swallow. Hello!!! So.. this non Pharm head is considering Claritan. hope it doesn't have crazy side affects like giddiness. jk.. relief commeth here

2003-04-03T12:31:00.000-05:00

Odd, I know

Here I am in the world today - OUT to most everyone I know (ok.. not my grandparents).. .but most everyone. I love being gay. I feed off of gay energy. I think gays have more colorful lives. I love the Pride of being gay.

With that said -- I seem to look at and comment on men's packages. It's not a sexual thought or penis envy - it's just interesting to see the different packages and how that person so chooses to 'wear' it. I even joke and grab yours! only because it's Fun and Funny!

So here I am working out this morning -- lots of 'regulars' sweatin it out. There is always this tall, athletic black man -- he spins with us sometimes. Anyhow - he wears tights and a long shirt (like a 'runner' does). Wellll Ya'll. He decided to not wear a long shirt today -- and me and ALL other people in a 10 ft radius... It was huge and very present. I had to do my situps on the opposite side of the gym.

I know............ODD

linkin park

2003-04-01T16:46:00.000-05:00

Lessons..

Work lesson for today
*I don't care for flighty folks... not to mention those that cannot get their point across after a five minute blab session.

Music lesson for today
*Sade can calm my nerves

Excercise lesson for today
*AM workouts are where it's at - but evening runs are great (cuz it's Freakin LIGHT OUT!)

linkin park

2003-03-31T15:25:00.000-05:00

Pour Myself A Cup of Ambition

Introducing.....bom bom bom....... The Three Stooges:

Darling Peter Arnett -- are you short of coo-koo or what? Why don't you just announce your conversion to Muslim and express your gratitude to Sadaam by voluntaring for a suicide bombing.

Crash Clark - even tho i never listen to the annoying 99xers in the am.. i happen to jump start the ACK with the dial set on you offending 90% of the women in Atlanta and 75% of the men. Smart Move! - way to create a political MESS on the air. Good luck keeping that job!

Here's to a Merry Harrick Christmas.

Build a life and a career..........all to watch it go down with your morning toothpaste. It's gotta suck

linkin park

2003-03-31T12:22:00.000-05:00

Tick Tock Yeah Don't Stop

The last 20 years I've been a musical metamorphis. First records in the early 80s (Xmas gifts) were Michael Jackson, Men at Work and Journey. I found myself listening to mom's collection of Floyd, Fleetwook Mac and Billy Joel while lying next to the speakers or with the Mega Headphones every weekend afternoon. Middle school was a massive cassette tape explosion -- Friday night radio and my recordable tapes absorbed my free time. I remember waiting until 11pm Sat night to get 'I wear my Sunglasses at Night' on tape. Who knew what sound quality was then??? Billy Idol and Van Halen followed. Then High school brought 80s Alternative into obsession. - REM, The Smiths and The Cure T-shirts were IT!

High School to College was a huge transition - no clue how this happened -- but i switched to Folk - Indigo Girls and R&B. My one year tenure at Alabama was nothing BUT R&B. I have been taken back to that time with 97.1 moving from Oldies to R&B Oldies (early 90s). I got off on singing along with Color Me Badd and Al B Sure this morning. I just laughed at myself... What a GEEK! But how much fun is this!

Post college - Industrial Dance Music and Now Pop Music stays on my car radio. (mostly out of laziness i think) - b/c my favs remain to be 80s Alt and Light Alt like the Coldplays, Jeff Buckleys, Ben Folds, Natalies, Sarahs, Sheryls of the World. Throw in Pink and some DJ Alexa and I'm set!!!

LInkin Park

2003-03-28T10:57:00.000-05:00

Positive

I've had one of my more positive weeks -- and have not given the 'God You Annoy the Fuck Out of Me' people an ounce of my energy. But it's definitely time for the weekend... i feel the urge to slap one in particular. Sunshine save me!

New restaurant with my closest of close last night. Big Golden Chards flew right thru me. My head hit that pillow hard. If it was only 4pm and I am running to begin my wkd. I Dream of Jeanie's Blink-Blink!!

One more week until my Holiday. Braves & Beat season openers aaaagghhh... dreamy. Six more weeks until the beginning of Summer Sand lifestyle!

Today - I'm listening to Jeff Buckley. I wish I had my Ben Folds CD to follow the artist mood... or I could borrow JB's folk collection.

FYI -- I'll be anyone's date for Dave Matthews

LInkin Park

2003-03-27T11:51:00.000-05:00

Beat on It

I guess it's boxing or nascar syndrome... you Want the battle.. .the crash... the Fight! There I was - screaming and bangin on the glass at my first hockey game. It helped that I was treated to a suite and 2nd row 'On the Glass' seats by Bellsouth. Besides not being able to see the entire playing field (ice) I was into 'every minute.' It helped that we shared a suite with enthusiastic beer drinkers to entertain me, mom and bro! Great experience! You have to try it if you haven't!

Sober ending on Techwood. Flat tire, a mechanically inclined homeless man, three tipsy McCrory's and the Mega Philips TV lighting our efforts to 'jack a jag' -- This beautiful, sleek and classy Jag causes so much BS. A brand new tire flat... for an unknown reason... well, I watched my brother work with a very skilled homeless man. Not only was he skilled.. he coached and motivated my brother (interesting to watch i must add).. I sat and thought.. look at this man (as i see his drugs peaking out from his pocket) he's quite good at this, but he choses to not do anything with it. If I owned a garage.. that's the kind of spirit and effort I would hire on the spot. Just as I'm thinking this -- the freaking car drops onto my brothers foot. Mom and I immediately dump to the car to lift it and his foot is dislodged without harm.. but Holy SHIT. I about crapped in my pants. The what if's remained present throughout my dreams and a crappy night's sleep.

Needless to say -- it was a great night -- by the time I was dropped off 2 miles away - my brother had calmed his 'Fuck this Car' attitude and said... let's go to the Braves game next!!! I hugged him and said "you got it!" -- i love him so. And how funny is it that we even have similar 'get so pissed off and then 5 minutes later we're on to something else!"

Linkin park

2003-03-26T13:41:00.000-05:00

Perks Baby!

Love it when the perks flow! Mom has tickets to the Thrashers (can you believe this... I've never been) -- and they're bad ass seats! As my mom says "they're on the 50 yard line" -- with a large laugh -- I say "SWWEEET"

Linkin Park

2003-03-25T09:48:00.000-05:00

Opinions

Three feet from the red and gold helmets of SuperBowl IVX on top of a brown ottoman from the world's most comfortable chair. You couldn't have peeled me out of that room with a thousand dip sticks or a hundred bowls of pound cake mix (maybe 101 bowls??? Priorities people!). Here comes the bowl of champions.... no, not Joe Montana's dream game... but the my choice of dinner during the big game.... C.E.R.E.A.L.

I even had my own spoon for such occasions. Here I am, kneeling close to the TV with bowl in hand and enjoying every bite with dreaminess. Even though the commercials weren't quite at the million dollar price tag -- I was still amazed by them. I could concentrate on the tv and eat like no one else. To make my experience ten times better... a cereal commercial comes on TV ... it's for "Honey Nut Cheerios" --- just as it's playing, Mom walks in and I immediately give my two cents "Mom.... I love my cereal... so don't ever buy that froo froo Honey stuff... I wouldn't like it" -- I was a huge fan of cheerios with my own portions (a BUNCH) of sugar on top.

Mom sits next to me and says "I'm so glad you like it... It's good isn't it" -- Me: "Oh my god, if you only knew... but you'll have to get your own bowl mom"

Dale..... you ARE eating "Honey Nut Cheerios"............In shock and disbelief "WHAT?" -- What Have I become? In somewhat embarrassment (of what I don't know...? That i was wrong maybe? the beginning of many RIGHT?) I turned and began watching football. Mom walked away and probably giggled at her silly kid.

From that point on... I said.. Hmmmm. My belief isn't always correct... and opinions off belief are skewed. Dale, there's so much you don't know... I mean really - Honey Nut Cheerios. (it took me another 5 or 6 years to get a hamburger with anything BUT ketchup on it... but hey, I take my time with risks!)

For whatever reason you are or are not against the war - Inform yourself and keep your Opinions flexible. I understand that "reality" is hard to pinpoint as we don't always know the full truth. But we must place some trust in what's told, and rely on your own assumptions with the idea that anything is possible. Take into acct the types of personalities and the track record of decisions.

Either way - I am FULLY behind each and every soldier. I could not sleep if one soldier doubted my support. If they are directed to battle... their minds can be at ease in that belief. That is My Opinion - Honey and ALL.

Linkin Park

2003-03-24T09:00:00.000-05:00

Victims

I crossed line by line as I used to color in the lines. One blade closer to being done, but fifty blades closer to feeling bitter. Why is this such a burden? Why am I getting so angry? Why is this affecting other parts of my life? This feeling boiled all the way to the pit of my stomach... making me turn 13 with a fit of rage and anger. I knew it b/c I'd lost a few layers of enamel on my molars.

Sunday came with some open life to it.. up so early - I could take one step at a time -into each room, into each breath and into each section of the paper. I had left the previous days thoughts alone. It was time to begin and complete a day without the anxiety or fear of what's hanging over me. A long run and full breakfast fed me to walk along Peachtree to the Religious Science message of the week. Amazing timing -- it was about Vicitimization. Pain and Suffering. The most profound point (although common sense!): Pain is natural and will happen (and it's OK).... Suffering, however, is a choice. It's obvious what my choices have been. It can be so simple.. but takes some extra effort at times.

Enlighted - I spent a full day in the sun with You (even tho the link is no longer active... who am i to speak!) and finally spent some time with my friends (that I truly miss). I sat back - looked and listed to a few of my closest friends (you and you).... smiled and said 'thanks'.

Here's to a better week...........ME
linkin Park

2003-03-20T10:22:00.000-05:00

Prejudice

I grew up in the South - mostly surrounded by upper class white folks, however poor because of a proud and dedicated mother who would MAKE it WORK. It didn't matter that the male factor had a Brickland (visualize electronic doors that rise) worth 'whatever' or that 'working' wasn't required. My pre-school years were spent at an apartment pool with cheese filled hotdogs, lesuer peas and grape kool-aid. It was there that I befriended a diverse group of friends -- Al, my best friend who played guns and robbers with me (who, i learned later was in rehab before HS graduation) and Deidra - a nerdy black girl that loved to give me 'coloring' guidance (i remember her hair ties with hard purple balls on them -- god, she loved purple).

My upbringing was based on how life is and should be good, judgements stall your personal growth and experiences are mine for the taking. Fairness is ideal, reality is the truth, but dreams are within reach. All things said, I was naive to hatred, to extreme behaviors, to prejudice. The differences I noticed were more with gender. I didn't really want to be a boy - but preferred match box cars and football to dolls and makeup. I loved my levi's. My mom's business partner thought she'd be nice and take me shopping -- like it was a favor to me. Here i was in a department store (which i think was TJMAX on Cobb Parkway.. Hello naive KID!!) looking at jeans that I had to get because all mine had holes in the knees from sliding on the ground. She takes me to the dressing room with a few pairs to try on............One word... Jordache. "What the hell is this?" I said. "I am not dressing up like Barbie for anyone -- I wanna Leave" -- after a large bout of pouting -we left empty handed (the plan worked!).

I look back and feel dissed for not knowing 'true lives' 'real experiences' of what was happening in the world. Was this the reason I never quite understood people's problems or international politics? Am I horrible at Trivia because I wasn't read to on a nightly basis? Was "memorizing" the only way teachers got my age group to pass economics? Sometimes I feel slighted --- then I realize that the simplicity, the basic truth of living, the balance of emotions & naitivity allowed me a time to be Young. I enjoyed my Rampar, I was creative in a kid way -- i designed and redesigned my bedroom, i designed plans for a BMX track and the promotion strategy to get participants (mini business me).

Only if everyone had some form of innocence during their upbringing -- maybe there wouldn't be such aggressive, testosterone driven actions. (male and female). Today I can calmly accept that I may not be destined for the Nobel Peace Prize --but hopefully I will have an emotionally balanced life??? Maybe not...........maybe all of the above was yet another daydream?

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2003-02-13T10:38:00.000-05:00

Knowledge and Effort = Power

I don't think that one can be over prepared for what every human is facing in these trying times. Please go to this site and inform yourself on what YOU should do in case of ANY type of emergency. You owe yourself, your friends, your family - and ME- that respect. It takes 15 minutes.

I remember Sept 12th and 13th. I spent those days breathing - slowly. I find myself doing the same self-awareness breathing on a daily basis. The air smells better, the sky looks clearer, the trees look alive (even when they're bare). It's where I find my own peace.

Do not allow Fear of the unknown lead your thoughts - Belief is yours to own. Belief that this too will pass, belief that this is possible, belief that you will live through all of it and learn, belief that you've built friendships that help you through the disbelief. I plan to enjoy the upcoming Spring festivals, summer pool parties and yet again, College football!

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2003-01-24T09:15:00.000-05:00

Yeah Yeah Yeah

I feel good today. I think it had something to do with a 5am body massage (Baby, You Rock) and then a strong 6am workout! Yeah - i might be needing some lift up around 3ish today --- so I think I'll leave work then! HA. I even think i'm enjoying the cold -- thanks to a sweeet huge down Jacket!

I do look forward to a weekend of cards, a swank Grant Park party (miss these boys) and of course, The SUPA-SUPA Bowl. I'm picking Tampa Bay -- Hey Wait Kimi, My girl and I picked the Bay to win on our Poll. Does that mean we win the HOUSE? OH Yeah Oh yeah!

I'm also looking at a new toy for myself. Hmmm will I? Should I? Oh come one......toys are fun.

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2003-01-22T08:54:00.000-05:00

just one of those things

You know - besides the lack of mega sports in the winter, I become less active socially. When it's happening, I think to myself -- this is exactly what I want to do -especially during the week. I'm reading more - online at home more - sleeping more - excercising and eating regularly --- and of course, watching tv more. It's called Dale's Winter Hiding. It's got its perks, but when I realized that we're halfway through the Dark Side (you know.. non Dale Light Savings) --so just 2 1/2 more months - -- and one of those months is March ---- We ALL know what fun I have in March!!! D'Lish celebration.

Last year -- 30th Wine Party. This year -- the party is at Trish'a'lishs HOUSE!! Who wants to join? Slumber Party is optional

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2003-01-20T12:41:00.000-05:00

The Christian Institute..

Actually has a card carried by members - similar to organ donar detail.... which says that 'If I die, my children cannot be adopted by homosexuals"
GOD... that's Crazy! Almost as crazy that their are 'flavors of religion' that lead one's life in so many different directions. I heard a good question a couple of weeks ago.. "What Religion is God in?"

I'm all about everyone believing in.. or practicing religion of their choice..............but if this is Christian activity --- I'm OUT

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2003-01-14T13:01:00.000-05:00

Winterhead

In this state, I become a little 'odd' -- somewhat silly or even sporadic. I blamed it on Monday yesterday - but it's lingering. I realized last night -- I'm like this in the winter. I watch and read so much news on a daily basis - that i'm spewing out nothingness (aka personal opinions). It's not that it is nothing, but it's just so Random and with lack of direction. Jump Jump -- Chris Cross makes me do it.

I realized on the onset of "The Show" why Faith Hill married Mr McGraw. He's just a sexy beast (with his hat on of course). Maybe one of their 100 children will be gay and share in the fun! I agree with the Alabama drummer -- the Elton John duet with Tim was nothing short of amazing. I just love Ole Elton. But girl... you and Christina may have the best voices... but get rid of the WIGS. Maybe they should just exchange them? HA -- pure entertainment.

Other highlights:
*Sheryl -- you are an icon, you are a true musician and I'm not the only one that noticed that you are a pronoun queen (60 minutes). "I've dated alot of PEOPLE" -- uh huh -- we know you have.

*We've just seen Britney in the form of a male --and in the country music genre (no clue what his name was... but it had to be Britney's brother)

*Is it scary or good for young female's self esteem and identity that Kelly Osborne will be someone in Hollywood. Too bad her brother is destined for porn flick management

*Vanessa Carlton had three GOODY products in her hair... we just couldn't see them. I'll say this.. she looked like a dark headed Gwen Stefani groupie (in a good way of course)

*What Indian Tribe does Shania belong to?

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2003-01-13T10:24:00.000-05:00

Odd Mondays -- I'll call them Mod-nays

sometimes i wonder what's happening --- it's like i'm becoming the voyeuristic silent kid in the corner vs the kid in the middle of duck duck goose -telling everyone to run faster. I know you all know i'm the loud kid, but i truely enjoy when Silent Me surfaces. I absorb what others do and say. Lessons Oh Lessons.

~is everyone always so negative
~am i judging or am i observing
~401K is the primitive SS system.......they're all a falacy in their own right
~who's making the decisions to send so many husbands, fathers, brothers and sons?
~criminology is the most popular subject - crime scene incedent and forensics are equally facinating (thanks to Dick Wolf... American TV viewers agree)
~Real life vs fake life -do you know the difference
~you body is really all that you own
~meat is murder and pesticides are added to crystal meth
~does everyone sing along at church
~i truely don't know alot about any one thing - besides sports (sorry, but it's true)
~my kids are extremely odd - are they a representation of our subconcious?
~hardwood is my bitch
~wheatgrass is good

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2003-01-06T12:46:00.000-05:00

Start your Engines Please

It's the new year. Vacation is Over. Everyone is on High at Work. My schedule is full. My personal goals are published. My mind is focused.

And I've just been given the chance to race Porsche's.........what FUN (as long as I don't kill myself Right)

May this energy continue... as I stay focused

And oh yes... I still think February is the most boring Sports months of the year. I'm thankful that I've booked myself for activity in Feb... cause I'm usually at my wit's end with cold weather, no color and eagerness for Spring!

Isn't MLK day coming soon? Cause if you can remember... I renamed it "Orgasm Holiday" (See blog history) -- Sing it loud QUEENS

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2003-01-02T13:39:00.000-05:00

Historical Date

Thanks to your obsession with dates/numbers... I now know that today is a date with HISTORY

01-02-03 or 1-2-3

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2003-01-02T12:10:00.000-05:00

Ending it
In a brief recap

`02 (my 30th year) was one my best
*rehired, promoted, major project accomplishments, recognition of it
*amazing 30th birthday month
*the best festival season (spring) in Atlanta I've ever had
*fun roomate living for summer Sun -- Go Pool Life GO!
*fell in love
*still in love
*grown closer to my family of friends
*Closest of Close relationship with Mom -- watch out Gay World... she's having fun with us now!
*NYE party at Walt & Philis' -- perfect place and way to close out an amazing year!

NOW..how to top it? Bring it on!

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2002-12-19T10:24:00.000-05:00

Ok I get it

I'm on of those people that went on a hiatus --was it mental.. was it physical... was it insanity?

Whatever it was -- it's found me walking alone talking to myself. You know - those people that you see from your car. Mouth is just-a movin. Hand expressions.. bodily involvement in the motion of my thought... that's me.

it's true.... my absence in the bloggin world has me writin to myself!

Give this poor poor pitiful blogger some attention

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2002-12-18T16:00:00.000-05:00

Thankful

`mom
`family
`doodle
`my putties
`friends
`shelter
`health
`my senses

`silliness
`sarcasm
`tongues
`competition
`southern charm
`your contagious laugh and dance moves
`your ability to make anything cool
`your ability to remind me that my bladder is strong (for now)
`your ability to keep our family at home
`your ability to hook us up all over this city
`your ability to influence my heart

Is she back?? to bloggin............... sweeeeet

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2002-12-17T10:46:00.000-05:00

Jolly Oh Wally

I don't think a week's vacation during the holidays was the best idea.. I feel like I've missed out on the holidays .... well, until now. I've packed in some holiday nights this last week before the Fun Filled Xmas Trip. (Any tips on how to make Xmas day a little more exciting??? -- why do i care if no stores are open? maybe it's just B/c they are closed do i feel trapped??).

Give me some input... good books, internet sites, etc.

Hmmm Dale.. Idea........You NEED a New Blog Site!!!

Thoughts in the New Year
*Less trips without You
*Financial Planning
*Hawaii
*Career Improvement in current role (i know i've got some room to improve)
*Update my home!

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2002-12-16T16:03:00.000-05:00

Calling all Social Coordinators?

What's the dealio for New Years People? I know you've got something wild and crazy! I just wanna make sure I'm kissin YOU... and I'm around all You's (1, 2, 3, 4, 5+ all non bloggers)

Share It PEOPLE

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2002-12-16T15:59:00.000-05:00

Cruisin and a Bruisin

I grew up hating long drives. But every holiday - we were off... westward bound on the Southern Shuffle - Bama and Mississippi. Back Then... there weren't modern highways connecting Atlanta with T-town and the Burg. Not only did i get extremely bored and couldn't fathom READING anything for a period of time -- but also because I could get motion sickness by just checking to see if my fly was open. As I grew older.. I was able to control the nausea with breathing techniques and Always in the front seat (yes, my brother always thought I was faking) and in control of the tempature! Usually after an hour and when we hit a long straightway, I could move my eyesight off of the road below. That's when the fun started -- I spot something "insert color" or the alphabet game!

Well -- I'm 30 and I've basically overcome motion sickness if i'm in the front seat or I've pulled out some mind over body techniques. But last week... I was thrown right back into age 5 in a heart beat..... I went on a Cruise. The remedy -- a patch behind my ear that releases motion medication for up to three days. This worked wonderfully - until i put the second round behind my ear half way through the trip... and it hit me... Motion Medication Overdose. Dry Mouth. Dry Skin. and a total loss of clear vision. It SUCKED. I took it off Saturday -- and I think my body is going thru withdrawals... i'm still moving with the ship and my eyesight isn't 100%.

So... Don't expect this chica to be on another ship anytime soon

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2002-11-25T10:40:00.000-05:00

A day in the life

Do straights smoke more? I swear they did last Thurs --- hitting the straight strip of Crescent, my throat is still recouperating from a second hand lung scorching. Other than that, it was a great night. Doodlehead played bongos, while i sang along with the almighty K-Lo. (Kevin, you Rock -- plain and simple)

Friday ---was my Rush into the holidays. I haven't even prepared myself for the 'giving of thanks' -- but jumped into it full force. Bombats and the Wimbledon crew hosted nothing short of a true family feast. I scooted around to Frank - I drank in family style - and i felt at HOME.

The Throne of BRU was overcome, in a last minute victory, by a blonde team. Afterwards, in my drunken defeat i took my silly ass over to Walt & Philips --- where I... I ... ok, i drank some more. The best part, was that I returned the next day for a full day of dog heaven and great company. I think I experienced the parental joy of seeing your kid beeming with innocence and pure happiness. Whitley -- you've got nothing but good times ahead of you!

Then, with great avoidance of talking about the Bama loss, I attended a Catholic wedding. Yes, five hymns, ten prayers, 30 min of communion, the ring exhange, the kiss, daydreaming, grocery list planning, xmas shopping plans, cuticle review, and two naps -- the wedding was finally over. The reception -- which makes ALL weddings worth it -- was an OUTING experience. Maybe it's just the reinforcement or a breaking of the walls experience. Most of my co-workers know about me... but now they know i'm with One woman -- an amazing woman - (and like Walt says - My meaannns).. she's my womeeaaaans.

Ended the wkd with a full Sunny Sunday of rearranging the condo -- to cleaning out a miserably dirty vehicle. Closing with couch luvin and movie viewing.

I am full -- and little sore in the liver area! Oh well.... Welcome to the Holidays!

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2002-11-22T12:34:00.000-05:00

Uh My GoT

I've been such a fucking sap..... i just went to my site -- you know, the one that i've pretty much forgotten about this season -- and read a few blogs. Nausea! Plain and simple... boring ass nausea.

Get some funk back in your step beeeootch

I listen to Gaydar on my computer at work -- and there's this bad ass remake of a Pink Floyd classic (whom i love - although I hate the Doors) - I have no clue who sings it but it sounds like the BeeGees with a Night Rider thump and base, belting out Comfortably Numb!..............I just stand up, next to the computer, next to the leather chair and next the paper ridden desk and BUST LOOSE... You go on Andy Gibb!

Do the Runway girl.... shake that AHHsss!

I picture it now - - tight white pants and a sailor shirt - Chest Hair and All... "Aqua Net ME girl!"

YO YO -- The Dealio is back

I need a DANCE night --- and SOON --- How about a Gay Sunday - 90s Style!
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2002-11-18T11:44:00.000-05:00

You might as well smile, because tomorrow you just don't know
It will pass
It's gonna pass
... it'll will pass in time

thanks beth O'

2002-11-14T09:41:00.000-05:00

Wouldn't you like to be a Yella too

I drive to work - oh, lets say- about 30 miles each way five days a week. I don't really complain (unless i'm SO late) because the drive gives me alone time - to think, to plan, to do nothing! and to people (and car) watch. As I drive the final stretch of my trip each morning, I see this guy, riding his bike to work. Today I saw him reach up and adjust his snow hat -- and get his frozen knuckles back to the handle bars within seconds before running into 60 mile hour oncoming traffic. I thought to myself, this poor guy must be freezing. he must hate going to work on days like this. he must not have any other form of transportation. wow.. courage - wow... he's taking care of his family whatever way he has to. There's major value in that

Then I sat and thought -- there is a part of me that would like to be him. I know that's fucked up -- b/c I like comfort, I like my car (hell , i love cars) -- but, with a few obstacles (like freezing cold air and travel time) this guy has the benefit of simplicity and excercise. I know I'm always happier after a good run or work out -- he get's this daily -- and right before work! Couple that with breathing fresh air and feeling the sunlight on your skin -- witnessing colors of nature at a slower pace! I found myself wishing I could ride a bike to work everyday.

Imagine his costs-- i'm guessing his bike is second hand or 'not new' - so maybe $50 + co-pay health insurance from work. Not bad.

I did this in Miami for 6 weeks......I found that it worked amazingly well. Want ads... job opening in Midtown please!

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2002-11-05T12:34:00.000-05:00

I sit here this morning - wondering what happened to the last two months - I begin to think that I haven't done anything in two months. Then I realize that I've done a whole hell of a lot -- just different things than I did in the Spring and Summer. Maybe my make up is Responsibility in the Fall and Happy Go Lucky in the Spring. Who knows - but the best part about the fall, minus college football, is the holiday season -- it's a mini Springtime. I'm out. You're out. We're all social. Work is less stressful... hmmm.. I think I'm ready!

This has been one of the best college football seasons. My Dawgs and The Tide are having stellar years - both in the top 10! Great competition and Kirk Herbstreet keeps me geeked every Sat morning at 10:30! Besides the loss that NEVER should have happened, the Red and Black are BACK! And I don't care that I heard some drunk fool blaming the coach for the loss.. Sonny --- Sir Richt has taken our team past the unknown for Goff and Donnan. You may call him Sir Richt.

but here's my only suggestion to Sir Richt.........leave your quarterback in the freaking game. He's producing. He's winning.

2002-10-28T09:00:00.000-05:00

I'm BAAACCCK

Well.... my project has LAUNCHED... Now to make sure my support group is flying high... aka feeling good about the day to day support... then I'm off to SLEEP... and possibly even start talking to my friends again. How about that for an idea... a personal life. These last two months have been an excercise of (wait... might i say a lack of real excercise.. running/spinning/lifting).. will and consistency. All in all.. I feel great about it.

So... here's a Shout out to my Friiieeeeeeendzzzzzzzzzzzzz.... I can't wait to see all of you.

And BUGGAH to missing Bret'alina's Gay New Years (Halloweeeny) party.

Next:
1. Sleep
2. Excercise
3. A full day off
4. Georgia Florida Party - somewhere!!
5. Shopping (bugdet style) - but something DAMN IT
6. Smooches with my mom's new puppy - SAM
7. Time with my girls and boys! ALL of you
8. Get my house ready for sale/rent - yes, that means yardwork - my favorite
9. Gicky into something new and fun!
10. Love on my girly
11. ME TIME

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2002-10-23T09:02:00.000-04:00

To my fella blogga's

I promise..........to return to our blagga blagga land.......next week. Summer project launches 10-28 (hence my absence to personal email and bloggin). Miss reading the most recent experiences and thoughts...........and miss the humor several of you provide me every morning.................

Can anyone say.........vacation? I think I WILL!

SO - I beg of you -------don't stop linking to me............don't stop looking for my silliness............it'll return -- SOON -- in full force... i promise

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2002-10-08T16:00:00.000-04:00

Me So Proud

Mommalicious, Pinot, Berbisha Meowsdale, Momma-lucci, Trish-a-lish has just been approved and appointed for another two year term as a Commissioner for the State of GA for the Georgia Commission on Equal Opportunity. Governor Roy Barnes will be swearing her in on October 22nd, 11:00 a.m. at the Governor's office in the Capital Building. I will be there next to her.. with my Bro.. Chris MacDaddy! I hope I get one of those pictures with mom shaking hands with the goofus Guv... and manly wife. I really do want one -- In my office!

In addition to my excitement and obvious appreciation of mother's worth - professionally and personally -- she get's major thumbs up for acceptance. I can't pinpoint when it happened or even how.. but for the first time ever, my mom went out with me.. to a gay bar.. with my girlfriend and my wife, Ricky. I couldn't beleive it. I was on cloud 9. I'll say this... my 30th year of life, is my all time favorite.

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2002-10-02T09:20:00.000-04:00

Playground Chit Chat

I'm on one end of the see saw.. confident in my stride... positive on the strength of my balance... but questioning if the other side might be better. Does it have better soil for a more solid footing or is the wood of the saw more comfortable, allowing for a full body motion. Hmmm... this is how I feel about the Bama v Georgia game this weekend. One gave me birth and one gave me a degree. I could ask myself...which is more valuable.. DUH... then I battle with 'school pride' - b/c hands down, Athens stomps Tuscaloosa. Uhhh.. I'll decide Not to decide.

Buggah.... the middle of the see saw SUCKS

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2002-09-30T12:49:00.000-04:00

What a weekend

My long weekend served it's purpose.. lots of rest, lots of Doodlehead and organization. Granted, I didn't get to a few important things, but I needed the separation for just one weekend. I can get to all of THEM this week! I had some serious skin therapy going on this wkd. Massage opened up some PAINFUL back issues.. and toxin release. Couple that with a blue eyed convention.. and my skin is FULL.

I can't believe how time passes so quickly - especially when I regroup with friends I haven't seen in weeks. I also can't believe.. OH yes I can.. that I'm moving into a new space in the D'lish life cycle.. less bars, more dinner parties, less party favors, more full wkds, less drama, more genuine relationships... it's what my good friend Philip says... it's our NEW fun - and I love it. My Saturday was an ideal evening (although I think looking back, spades would have suited us better!) - Waltalicious cooked a great meal....and Philip chose fine wine... and Amy got to know two dear friends. I get the biggest jolt sharing my heart's direction with my friends...

I do wish I could have made it to the Sunday Brunch and show.... maybe next time! But I miss me some of JBjr

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2002-09-26T09:17:00.000-04:00

brief thoughts from my morning

~political cheerios require Tums
~Alicia Keys is a sensual goddess
~innocence of a child's smile sends me back to the basics
~spinach gives me energy, sugar drains me
~fluctuations in workload give my mind a break and my schedule a day off
~rain cleans the streets, hydrates our plants and gives me a cozy feeling
~I'm ready to feed my id..my knowledge id
~the cooler weather shifts my gears

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2002-09-25T08:53:00.000-04:00

Shimmy Shimmy Shake

I'm not sure if it's that song ringing in my head or if it's the fact that cable is replaying Ferris Bueller's Day Off over and over again this month, or if it's the principal look alike in my spin class (i swear it's him - that i almost pissed in laughter during the third song, fifth sprint) -- but I'm gettin giddy about my 'personal' day off this week. I plan to get out on foot and bike - do whatever I want to do - around the City of Joy (no Swayze, not India). I have a few ideas that will consume MY day. I'm pretty sure I won't be lipsynching during a parade or crashing a '57 corvette... but I'm ready for a non thinking, non cleaning, non strategizing morning and afternoon to the Whatever Gods!

Shoes over Food

We all know that Dale isn't always the most girlie girl alive... you won't find me spending 8 hours at the makeup counter or complaining about my jewelry collection.... but god allmighty, I love ME some shoes! I've practiced calming my shoe obsession -- but I think I've chosen to buy canned tuna over filet of halibut this week (and maybe next) to purchase cycling shoes. OK.. rationale.. I totally believe in non-trendy, high quality wear... so I had to spend double on these cycling shoes b/c they'll last for 10 years - and their Italian -- and we all know the italians ROCK at shoe making! (that's what the dudes said.. which I faithfully trust).. then I begin to think.. that probably means 15 years for me b/c I'm not Outside with them much... so it's worth the extra bucks --- RIGHT?

I suppose I have Ricky to keep my in the KNOW on fashion.... cause if I don't watch out.. my closet will be black, white, brown and blue. SOLIDS. My wife, he brightens me up! Not to mention, he keeps me up on hair, face and skin products like no other. Throw in cleaning products - and this queen has me up to date. Now, if only he would listen to me feed his mind with sports info! Hahha... no really - we (Lish and Love) have begun to recruit him to our side.. he's gettin in shape and looks GREAT! Our pool will be the ONLY place to be next Spring!

Femme Fatale

I am SO into the vh1 station this week... maybe it's the rain.. but there is something valuable about humming to Tracy Chapman!
ADD to Day Off: Listening time at Corner CD!

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2002-09-24T14:29:00.000-04:00

9th Grade Ride Home

Do Not Expect You to Wake
Do Not Expect You to Phone
Do No Expect Anything When I catch you Alone

And When I kissed you last night in my own backyard
You ran so hard and you forgot so long

Your Firm remarks to remove my Thighs

YOU MUST BE CRAZY FOR ME!
Sing it Melissa

Oh, what memories... youthful lesbianhood. It's worth a laugh out loud for sure

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2002-09-23T11:29:00.000-04:00

It's Just Rewards, Dale

A full weekend spent with the lady of choice, my kids, my home, Starbucks and some Jills at Jocks. I do feel myself trying to get out of the 'back to school' hybernation of September, but I'm not totally there yet. I know this as I'm taking off a day this week to just BE.. go to the bookstore, the movies, clean my car ( I know Ubiquita (her name).. you've been neglected) and to just Relax. The financial evils have come around to recheck me into budget land. And I find myself getting angered or off centered by it... cause i hate budgets... however, we must all follow them. I guess have some self realization that I don't have as much as I'd like, or that my investments can't go unmanaged any longer.

Note to self: it's money. make it spend it -- but also save it. Organize your life to expect the unexpected and adjust without emotional reaction. But just like everything else... it all comes at ONCE.

Best news in a while... my gym is opening a new one one block from my house! Whhhoooo hoooo! Now that's a Perk. I've also heard that a Banana Republic and an Eatzi's are going in across the street.... double whoo hoo..... now if I can only get a jobby job down here.... I can park the CAR and act like I'm living in SF!

A shout out to Sweating!

2002-09-20T15:24:00.000-04:00

boom boom boom da boom

Weeks worth of work behind me and a Friday feeling of "get the fuck out of here" came over me at Noon. So off I went. Couple of errands and now to the DJ Alex Show. I am being schooled on what I've taken advantage of for many O years.... mixology. I suppose if you asked me if I know anything about 'mixology' - i jump up and say "I sure do... I can make some serious mix drinks"........

Then I'd realize... i'm such a dumbass.... duh Dale.. mixin' beats. I guess I can be somewhat stupid on some topics... But god do I know my sports... OK.. back to feeling a little intelligent after ignorant comments.

So I'm on early leave to enjoy a half-sunny afternoon watching this girl, so excited, so eager, so focused... practice what she's been wanting to for quite a while. I can't but help feel the excitement for her.. even if I'm not 'UP' on the dealio of spinnin. Here's to your genuine happiness and passion. GO GIRL!

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2002-09-20T09:08:00.000-04:00

errrr errrr errrrr, SLAMMM. aaah.

here i am watching myself from myself... watching these two guys chase each other. One finds a hiding place under large roots of a tree that have made their way out from under broken ground. It's kinda like how Arnold did in Predator - where his arms looked like the roots. The second man.... the chaser.. he's very serious and determined that he'll find him.. no frustration is shown on his face - just intent - highly focused- as he increases his speed through the woods........

errrr errrr errrr, ...what? where is that noise coming from.... is it a siren or warning.. would it be the best time for the hiding man to take off as the chaser wouldn't hear him? should he Dale... tell him that's what he should do....HEY Man.. Run NOW.. get up.. GO

errrrrrrrr errrrrrrrrr errrrrrrrrrr... oh shit.. SLAAAMM...humm - where am I?

Female: "Dale, get up, it's 7:30"
Me: "i'm up"

aaaahhhh.. now what's next... did he listen to me? did he run? was he caught?

damn it's cold.

errrrrrrr errrrrrrrrr errrrrrrr.. OFF! drift............

where are you? where's the chaser? oh there they are... the first man is swimming. He found water and decided to use it as another form of camo. salamander style on the edge. There's the chaser.. he's seen him. Jump out and run MAN.. go. He can't get across the creek as fast as you can get out and get some ground on him....

Female: DALE GET UP DAMNIT - NOW. NOW!
Me: I said I'm up.
covers... give me more covers.....

Female: Nails Crash onto the door........NOW DALE.. I'm not coming back in here......Getup NOW.
Me: Shit.. did I do my homework? What do I have to do today? How far away is Saturday?

WELCOME to my daily mornings in Middle School!

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2002-09-18T12:52:00.000-04:00

Three Words

FLESH FOR LULU!

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2002-09-18T09:12:00.000-04:00

Silence

Most of you know me as somewhat social, somewhat loud, somewhat chatty, somewhat out there.........but did you know that I don't like to talk at all at the gym, at the doctors office, at the bookstore or at the grocery store. I'm not sure why -- maybe it's because I talk all day or i'm a social bug... but there is a part of me that likes to be the silent voyeur in the back - where I'm not bothered, not asked to contribute... and not asked to speak.

For a while, I thought it was odd that I shot so far across the spectrum .. but then realized it's a break - a balance - a separate experience that i crave. It's the same reason I might turn the phone off at night...........Silence is Golden (thanks United Artist)

I am having a flash back to January and February when I spent my unemployment lunches with Retro Recess...dancin in my socks on my hardwoods. I've selected Retrograde (over Neon or Femme Fatale) on my Radio VH1 (shout out to them.. they rock)... with yesterdays' selection.. I'm back to rockin with Yaz, the Communards, Peter Murphy, Scritti Politti, Jimmy Summerville, New O!, The P'Shop Boys & Erasure! God, i love 80s music. I wish I could have been 20-30 during the 80s.... just so I could go see all these bands again... all over the world. Who wouldn't love dancin in the South of France to Bronski Beat!

Whoooo HOOOOOOOO --- Go Girl... Dance WIT me!

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2002-09-17T09:45:00.000-04:00

Summertime Rolled

And it's now over. I can remember my giddiness and comments back and forth with JBjr about the energy of Spring in Atlanta. I celebrate Day Light Savings SPRING FORWARD like it's my birthday! Now I'm facing the Fall Back and it makes me a little sad. I do love Fall and the activities that surround this time of year. But I'm not a huge fan of a greenless geography, cold nipples, or going to work and leaving work in the dark.

I have great memories of Spring/Summ'uh 2002 - Crazy 30th birthday month (and recovering April), festivals and concerts (Go Drivin N Cryin) at Piedmont Park, Friends in P-cola, pool DAZE, Pride weekend, meeting and connecting with a beautiful woman, Rick moving home, Pride Sista Pride, sports outings, Leo Dinner Party with Berbisha Meowsdale (Pinot, Mommalucci) and of course the soothing BLUE and GREEN from my pseudo deck on Friday nights! I love Atlanta and I love my friends.

Now - to get past that winter is forthcoming, and to enjoy Fall -- Football, Colorful leaves, Morning workouts and productive days -- NEW CLOTHES to Follow!! I'm ready for a few fall vacations and cooler (note: not fucking COLD) weather. Layers can be fun... More to take OFF.

So -- know that my hybernation of late is only temporary, but necessary. I'll resurface with my usual energy and sarcastic gander. I do miss my boyz - Troublboy, Crazyboy & Bodyboy- plus Clifford, P-diddy Philip and All the 5th Street Deck Crew. JB... i need a wine night at Cho Place.

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2002-09-12T15:12:00.000-04:00

That THING

You have benefits at work. You have rights under the constitution. You have morals within faith. You have rules from your parents. You have speed limits and water restrictions.

Note to Self... You have the ENDLESS restrictions to your Senses... I wanna all my senses on That Thing!

What is that Thing to you?

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2002-09-11T08:17:00.000-04:00

I choose

friend over foe
quiet over loud
simplicity over complexity
soft over hard
positive over negative
balance over extreme
confidence over cockiness
giving over taking
sharing over selfishness
acceptance over judgement
active over sedentary
faith over disbelief
involvement over solitude
peace over war

Please, to the powers that be - one above human conciousness - send the winds through our souls to remind us that we're all ONE.. all from the same origin. Eliminate hatred...by understanding anger and aggression. Bring Peace to me, you and to all who inhabit this place called earth.

Today I sob. Today I remember. Today I give my best effort to understand. I send all of my energy and compassion to the families and friends of 9-11 victims -- and to all of us --as we ALL are affected. I'm proud to be an American. Female. Human.

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2002-09-10T14:37:00.000-04:00

Reaaddyyy.... BREAK

My thoughts during my 3 minute mental break....aaahhh...

1. Morning massages
2. A lip stickin, dry lip smile
3. Kidney beans
4. Diane and Betty
5. Shoulder cups
6. 6 months
7. Seam'O and Aves
8. blue eyes and white teeth

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2002-09-09T14:51:00.000-04:00

Skin Therapy

It's plain and simple... Dale's obsessed with skin therapy and couldn't be a happier woman because of it.

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2002-09-06T06:26:00.000-04:00

Cock-A-Doodle

I sit in a northern town... singin 80s music in my head.... and laugh that Cock-A-Doodle is really Rick and Amy. How funny is that.. there's a new Dynamic Duo in town....and they've got a new name~ My game face trip drained this little girl into an early dinner and drinks over more working conversations into a 10pm snoozefest. I'm cool with that, except that tells my body -"oh, body, this must be one of those spinning mornings" - so I'm up at 4am with a purpose... ready to end my work week and get back to hometown.

I do enjoy catching up on the news within the financial community, the international extremist review, the sports craze and the calming weather forecast. There's just something settling about knowledge. Makes me want to spend more time at the bookstore. I think I will.

I few news notables that stand out in my head:

~Two Pensacola boys vs. a family friend.. who is guilty -- of murder, molestation, manipulation, lying, plain white trash! I will say this.. the youngest boy -- who I believe is seven... is a damn good actor. I believed him when he said he did it just as much as when he said he didn't. AT SEVEN... watch out if he get's 'OFF' --cause this little mastermind will use this skill again. Suggestion: Politics or Financial Analyst (sorry Brandi... but those peeps are floodin out of the 'sneaky man's game)

~The Massive number of children being abducted has me just down and out about raising children. I know, I'm a 30 yr old lesbian..not ready for it now... but I've always seen children in my life.. and I can't deny moments of disgust or question in bringing a child into this world. Does society even trust me with my own child. Then again... the positives of living definitely out weigh the negatives... but god forbid someone touching, kidnapping, abusing my child.........that would be my biggest challege to date.. fighting RAGE. The controls in place aren't working. What can be done... Thesis anyone... at least it sounds more interesting than Transportation Planning.

~Arthur Blank.. the business man of the hour.. his goal is to bring life back into the Falcon's fans. I couldn't be happier that he's apart of my home town's sports authority - NFL Ownership. I think I'd like to work for him. He's obviously learned over his tenure - Simplicity and Demographics are the name of the game.... figure it out.. the fans are your bread and butter. The challenge past owners have had.. is that they have only focused on One part of the demographic... the Upper Class. Sell more suites, Sell more corporate packages. I say, Yes to both.. but to ignore the masses is a fundamental mistake. The Youth and Lower Income people or even families... are football's biggest (and key word: most loyal) fans. This is so basic.. but So forgotten. How can you forget the biggest group - the mass? Granted, they're not your highest profit center... but take a lesson from Mr. Sam Walton.. VOLUME baby -- Volume at a lower cost will Feed your bank account - Get it....Casheesh! Cheaper season tickets - Sold Out in weeks(thank you! - or damn it Dale, you shoulda' bought them) Nose Bleed sections will be full! (a little unsafe and loud, but full)...So hire more security at minimum wage - and let your stadium (We, the city, have given you a stadium that can afford Volume selling) fill up, the television stations show the game in town (no more black outs please) - Sponsorship $$ follow after this- DUH, and open your piggy banks. The Show and Tell lifestyle is over folks. We're learning that in our day to day business lives.. the hard worker that knows the basics of the business ....wins and wins consistently over time. Let's all go to a Falcons Game!

....off the soap box................but you know my mood at 6am.... give me five hours...and a first class flight home... and i'll be back to my silly self...

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2002-09-03T12:41:00.000-04:00

Holiday wkd

I spent most of it sleeping.. the other part.... well, sleeping. I think my body has finally caught up from the last two weeks of High Intensity. I will say this. or suggest this.. everyone should get a gay male wife... one that makes you laugh at stupid noises and bodily functions, match you drink for drink just cuz, watch movies and drink coffee even on sunshiny days.... but most of all for being host to House Of Beauty! It reminds me that I love being a woman.

Trilogies.... screw em... just make me watch all three.. or NONE. I've got Adult A.D.D.... and can't handle it.

Whitley.... we became two peas in a pod...drivin around town droolin out the window and smilin at everyone who walked by. We're born to Run - she and I!

Protein... give me more. I'm all about this Perricone (whatever his name is) book about healthy skin eating. I mean really - it's nice to see a new perspective on eating.. it's not always about losing weight... but instead - Energy and Good Skin! I'm Game (minus coffee and alcohol).. but i'm tryin!

College Gameday... even I'm attracted to Kirk Herbstreet.. it's his confidence in his knowledge of the sport and ability to recognize talent - On His Own! What a turn on!

Mornings..... for two months I've had an amazing look at how mornings shape my day. I'm extremely lucky.

Now that the work week has begun - the fact that it's a short week and I'm out of the office for three of those days... makes me smile.. shake it up -- a little Different Style is always nice. Off to Phili I go.... and to think - I've never really been out in or toured Phili - maybe I'll get a chance to check it out?? Or maybe I'll be stuck in the conference room for 8 straight hours of 'get your hands dirty' planning sessions. Can I say Vacation -- NOW (hmm... beach or mtn getaway with the sexy chick?)

Maybe it's the end of summer mood... transition time..... well who knows... but, until I get out of my anti-social mindset ... I'll just look forward to seeing all my peeps soon!

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2002-08-29T18:26:00.000-04:00

She's Alive...Alive I Say

I think? I'm not sure my psychie would agree... I've worked more these past two weeks than I have all year (yes, I know, I was unemployed, but you get the Jist). I had this horrible notion that You would take me off your links, and You would think I was avoiding you and only you, of course i want you and you and you to know my love isn't lost for my chickies ---

I will resurface.. and watch out .. cause you know what it's like when D'lish has been tamed.... Anyone up for a Gay Sunday for the Holiday Wkd? I see a boat house.. I see a deck... I see the drag show on 10th!... I see Dale hangin from the rafters...............Up for It?

Off to cuddle with a hot chick - her name is Whitley! Maybe she'll let me wear the bark collar? Till You return... I'll daydream.

I hope I'm back................to my subculture Blog World

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2002-08-22T20:32:00.000-04:00

Apologies Apologies

To those of you that read my blogs daily - I owe you some tender love and care... I'm finally completing my day of work at home and I have to say hello.

And say two words:
COLLEGE FOOTBALL

Yeouwww Za!

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2002-08-19T11:05:00.000-04:00

Shout Out to Lady Whit

Some people come to work and sit at their desk with pictures of their wives, husbands, girlfriends and boyfriends... Well... me, I've got this hot number with a pumpkin hat. Her eyes say 'You do love me Right, cause I love you.' It just makes my day. Well miss Whitley - I just wanna smooch those lips, even if they get caught up in dry gums.
Here's my tune to you..."Shimmmy to Left, Shimmmy to the Right... "

Chilly Will

It was a weekend at home. It was a weekend of soulful communication. It was a weekend of weekend of calmness. I am happy.

I do hope to see my peeeeps sometime soon... Upcoming weekend is a dinner in Tuscany - that is over due! I can't wait to see YOU

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2002-08-16T12:05:00.000-04:00

..........Here's Johnny

Well looky there.. Dale is still alive. I've abandoned my bloggettes and blogsters, but you must know, not purposeful. The city of Philadelphia and the states of Penn and Deleware finally got the gander of these blue eyes. I actually stayed near Eatonton, the home of the Mushroom. Why is it that I thought Mushrooms would be from a western state like Oregon or from Italy? Life laughs at me sometimes... life: "Dale, you're so silly, you really don't know that much..get out and about more!"

I have alot to catch you up on.. many thoughts and opinions have passed over this last week.. Leo explosion, whip cream cleanup, traveling with straight people and a new biz lifestyle................but for the same reason of my disapperance... the jobby job calls... I'll catch up over the weekend...b/c I plan to do NOTHING... but chill and workout!

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